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GALAU!

That's an alay word that can describe my feeling right now. The funniest thing is... I don't know what I'm  galauing now. I just feel like something's missing in me... (Sounds like Flyleaf's song's, isn't it? Geez, I love that song!)

The first galau might be caused by my thesis. I really don't know where I can say this and now I choose to say it here: Why should there be rules when you want to write your ideas??? Well, the answer is clear: Because it's academic writing. And that's the point! I feel like I don't want to write any academic writings anymore. It pisses me off!

The second galau might be caused by my musical career that was said to come to an end. Well, I'm not supposed to believe it one hundred percent, but I just think that it might be right. I have been in many bands and it seems like I can't get things right. Again, something's missing but I don't know what. Geez!

The third galau is still related to the second. If I'm not destined to be in music, where should I be? I asked whether I still can work in the field of art and the answer is yes. Well, that's relieving yet confusing because I don't know which part of art it is. Really, I can't just get away from art because that's what makes me happy. I'm not a real artist because I don't know art principal either. I just want to... express myself.

So that's the theme of the day. Galau. And last, but not least, my Japanese lesson now is also starting to make me galau. It's getting harder. But I know that I can't just stop here. 'Cause I have to be able to speak it well. 'Cause I want to go to Japan someday and, I hope, live there. 'Cause I want to meet the Princes of the Wonderland. Hahahah.... That's it. これが終わりです。じゃね．．．(Kore ga owari desu. Ja ne...)